First let me state for the record that I am not the least bit jealous that Jennifer's blog is so good!! LOL If you know us three, you understand that comment, if you don't, rest assured it is tongue in cheek. 


Now, I want to say that I have been writing boring posts with "just the facts" for a couple of reasons. (Yes, my children pointed out that they were BORING) First, I wasn't sure Rebecca was really ready for me to put it all out there. Second, and maybe this should be first, I wasn't sure I was ready to put it all out there. This is the hardest thing I believe I have ever faced in my life. And I am afraid constantly that it will get harder! And I go to work every day and I smile, deal with kids and teachers, and then I go home and sink into my couch and I don't smile. 


I am not going to write a long piece tonight, but I will say that I am ready to put it all out there. I don't know what that will look like but it is going to be real, at the very least. We have a big day tomorrow and NO one wants to see the Charlotte skyline tomorrow but we have no choice. I am prepared, the best I can be but I am also scared and heart broken that one of my precious girls has to go through this. I am also heart broken that my other precious girl has to stay home, work and wait. 


We know that God's plan for Rebecca is written. We know He is in control and we have to let him be in control, whether the mama in me likes it or not. So for now, we are asking for all prayers from all of our prayer warriors. And good or bad, a post will be done as soon as I can; to update you all. Thank you for carrying us through this journey. We didn't want to take it but we are happy you are here with us. 


Jeremiah 29:11     ~Jan~